Since I was told in the hospital that I am cancer free I don't feel like it. I still feel like I have cancer and am very uneasy with the thought of being cancer free. I know it seems weird you would think I would be happy at the thought of being cancer free but I am not, at least not yet. I still need to go through radiation and will find out when I start and how long on Friday.
I finally took a shower today drain free. It felt good but I am still in pain. I don't feel like myself at all.
I feel like I am in this weird and unusual place. I should be happy my husband has been great and still wants me even though we can't yet. I have not thought about sex since I was diagnosed with cancer. I want to feel normal again but I know that it will be a long time before that happens.
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Thursday, March 14, 2013
The Surgery and aftermath
My surgery was on 2/27 and went very well. I was in a lot of pain but was controlled through the drugs. Richie spent the night with me and I was released the next day. Once home I had a cough but didn't think too much of it. I spent a lot of time sleeping and really don't remember much. On Sunday I woke up shivering and shaking. Richie took my temp. and I was running a fever.
We called the doctors office and they told me to come into the emergency room. Erica and Aunt Ellen took me in and I was there for a long time. Richie came and they took Tyler with them and he stayed with me.
Everything with the surgery looked good. They did a CT Scan and I had signs of pneumonia. So I was admitted to the hospital. I was there until Saturday. I was finally let go after being fever free for a couple of days. I am still on the antibiotics but doing much better.
I still have some pain from the surgery and one drain is still in. My breast surgeon was amazing I have almost no bruising and the scar looks really good.
On the 21st I get my port out finally Yeah it is starting not to work. One thing I would never recommend is the port in the arm way to much can go wrong.
I am starting to heal though and feeling better and that is all that counts.
We called the doctors office and they told me to come into the emergency room. Erica and Aunt Ellen took me in and I was there for a long time. Richie came and they took Tyler with them and he stayed with me.
Everything with the surgery looked good. They did a CT Scan and I had signs of pneumonia. So I was admitted to the hospital. I was there until Saturday. I was finally let go after being fever free for a couple of days. I am still on the antibiotics but doing much better.
I still have some pain from the surgery and one drain is still in. My breast surgeon was amazing I have almost no bruising and the scar looks really good.
On the 21st I get my port out finally Yeah it is starting not to work. One thing I would never recommend is the port in the arm way to much can go wrong.
I am starting to heal though and feeling better and that is all that counts.
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